These past few days have been a whirlwind and im honestly shocked that I even have enough time to write this post. First of all, I want to say thank you for all the texts, comments, messages and prayers from everyone! Ive been trying my hardest to get back with everyone but its been a crazy few days! So lets start with the birth story.
I woke up Thursday morning at 4 am and thought I peed myself. Ive never done it before but heard it was apart of pregnancy sometimes so didn't think much of it. I know...gross. Anyways after all that happened I started feeling a lot of pressure and figured it was just round ligament pain or something soooo I did what I was told to do and took a bath and relaxed. TOTALLY not realizing that my water broke.
At 5 I realized something didn't seem right and decided to call my momma and tell her whats going on in which she started freaking out saying she was on her way to get me and that my water broke. I called Shea who was 11 hours away at the time and informed him of what was going on thinking labor normally lasts a few hours so i wasn't too stressed or anything. By the time my mom got there I was starting to feel a little more pressure but nothing unbearable.
6:00 we made it to the hospital and I thought I was dying. I was super uncomfortable, feeling tons of pressure and trying my hardest not to cry. They checked me and I was dilated to a 4. They told me they were going to get a room ready for me and see what Dr. Bullock wanted to do.
10 minutes later they put me in a room and told me Dr. Bullock wanted to give me some medicine to try and stop the labor because I was only 34 and a half weeks but for them to check one last time to see what I was dilated to. In 10 minutes I went from a 4 to a 7 almost 8 and there was absolutely no way to stop the labor. At this point I was hurting SO bad and asking for an epidural, pain medicine or even Tylenol.
A N Y T H I N G to make the pain go away.
and of course they inform me its too late for any pain medication and I was going to have this baby 100% natural.
After what seemed like forever Dr. Bullock came in and it was time to start pushing and at 7:27 Braxton Beltran was born at 5lbs 12oz and 19.5 inches.
He is a big boy for being as early as he was!
I got to hold him for a little bit and let Tenley see and hold him before he was taken off to the NICU.
***** NICU UPDATE*****
(Sorry if all of this sounds super unprofessional. Im clearly not a nurse and don't know all the terms or anything! Just the basics that they have told me)
When Braxton was born he had some breathing difficulties and made a little grunting noise due to him being so early and his lungs not being fully developed. They put him on oxygen at 25 which the air we breathe is 21 so our goal was to get him down to 21. He was put on 3 different antibiotics and given a feeding tube and an IV.
As of today, he is 5 days old and shown SO much progress! He still has the oxygen tube but he is breathing at 21 and is on .5 of air (just because sometimes he starts breathing really fast) as soon as he shows consistency in his breathing the tube will be taken out. He is no longer on any antibiotics and the IV has been taken out. However, he does have a feeding tube because he has his moments that he refuses to take a bottle (Im so thankful that this pregnancy im able to pump and he is 100% on breast milk! I wasn't able to with Tenley and she was straight formula) He is also showing some signs of jaundice which is completely normal with him being born so early. We are just constantly praying that it doesn't get worse and he will be put under a light which limits our time that we can hold and see him.
Right now our main focus is on getting him to consistently eat with a bottle and not showing anymore signs of jaundice.
This journey has NOT been an easy one and as much as I wish I could say that I've adjusted well to it and its easy its definitely not. Dr. Bullock warned me that this was faaaaaar from my ideal vision of labor/delivery that her and I have been discussing these past few months that there will be some grieving going on. especially since Braxton will be in the hospital for a while and not home with me. I do cry.
I do feel torn when I have to leave him to take care of Tenley.
I do feel torn when I have to leave Tenley to check up on him.
My feelings get hurt super easily right now.
and I have become super over protective of Tenley.
and I probably will be until Braxton gets out of the hospital.
and Dr. Bullock informed me its all completely normal.
Once again, thank you everyone for your prayers, kind words, gifts, texts, and facebook/instagram messages! I know I haven't gotten back with everyone but I will try my hardest to today or tomorrow! As of right now, im still trying to get used to our new "normal" and figure out a schedule and make sure Tenley is still feeling very included and not left out!
***** NICU UPDATE*****
(Sorry if all of this sounds super unprofessional. Im clearly not a nurse and don't know all the terms or anything! Just the basics that they have told me)
When Braxton was born he had some breathing difficulties and made a little grunting noise due to him being so early and his lungs not being fully developed. They put him on oxygen at 25 which the air we breathe is 21 so our goal was to get him down to 21. He was put on 3 different antibiotics and given a feeding tube and an IV.
As of today, he is 5 days old and shown SO much progress! He still has the oxygen tube but he is breathing at 21 and is on .5 of air (just because sometimes he starts breathing really fast) as soon as he shows consistency in his breathing the tube will be taken out. He is no longer on any antibiotics and the IV has been taken out. However, he does have a feeding tube because he has his moments that he refuses to take a bottle (Im so thankful that this pregnancy im able to pump and he is 100% on breast milk! I wasn't able to with Tenley and she was straight formula) He is also showing some signs of jaundice which is completely normal with him being born so early. We are just constantly praying that it doesn't get worse and he will be put under a light which limits our time that we can hold and see him.
Right now our main focus is on getting him to consistently eat with a bottle and not showing anymore signs of jaundice.
This journey has NOT been an easy one and as much as I wish I could say that I've adjusted well to it and its easy its definitely not. Dr. Bullock warned me that this was faaaaaar from my ideal vision of labor/delivery that her and I have been discussing these past few months that there will be some grieving going on. especially since Braxton will be in the hospital for a while and not home with me. I do cry.
I do feel torn when I have to leave him to take care of Tenley.
I do feel torn when I have to leave Tenley to check up on him.
My feelings get hurt super easily right now.
and I have become super over protective of Tenley.
and I probably will be until Braxton gets out of the hospital.
and Dr. Bullock informed me its all completely normal.
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